let it all out;

my holiday schedule is pretty much sync-ed, i just need to start working on the tons of homework.

facebook is no longer as addictive as before, but still quite interesting.

woke up at 730 just now, totally overslept and didn’t manage to go out to buy a present for my friend so i guess later i’ll just write a really nice note didn’t go run either, but sleep has done me some good and i’ll probably sleep early tonight too since i’m really tired and i have to send mich off tmrw really early at the airport.

PEOPLE WHO TOOK PHOTOS AT COLOURS AWARD, PLEASE UPLOAD IT ON FACEBOOK AHAHAH

acer’s day workout this morning was quite funny, i’ve realized it isn’t that difficult for me to follow movements (thanks to dance) but i’m nohere near as pro as mr ho, and it’s quite funny watching the teachers SERIOUSLY do a workout omgosh.

i’m sick with the flu & a cough, and i need to nurse my voice into shape by monday.

i feel achieved for having listed out all the homework we have (on 06ip03’s facebook group, nonetheless.) but looking at what’s due kinda depresses me too.

still, some random joy must be felt, for the holidays are here, even if there isn’t much of holiday cheer going around.

good charlotte is my new favourite band, along with a few random songs xD

top of the world, looking.

slept at 3am last night finishing the teachers’ day presents. although it was just a dozen notes, i didn’t mass produce synonyms of appreciation but instead paused to reflect on what i was really thanking this teacher for, and realized alot of things.

like how guilty i feel towards some teachers for not putting in enough effort. minying says this kinda self-reflection shouldn’t be done just on teachers’ day, and i guess although i’ve learnt this year to treasure my friends, i don’t think i will really appreciate my teachers all that much till next year when most of them may not teach me anymore.

anyway, HAPPY TEACHERS’ DAY

photos later, once my laptop’s bluetooth is fixed. a large load of the teachers wore the NJ sch uniform, which is fitting cause most of them are from NJ anyway. i heard one of the students telling jokingly chastising the teacher about “betraying VJ” by wearing the NJ uniform, whoops. so i guess the “retrospect” thing wasn’t very accurately followed after all, although i think the theme was good + the skit by the council was quite good also. the best organized school event so far; or maybe i’m just starting to really enjoy school + hence it’s events as well. haha.

went out with minying after that, had lunch and then came home to catch up on my sleep because of the headache that was building so yeah.

my september holidays are officially in ruins, shall have to find some time to salvage it later by scheduling everything properly and urgh, i really need to make sure i get enough sleep. bah.

family; the happy ending.

wonderful day today, excuse me for rambling but i’m happy so yeah, happy leejing tends to ramble tons, even though she’s supposed to be doing up teachers’ day presents for a list of a dozen teachers who deserve her time of the day.

but yeah, that can wait.

started of the morning with tiff and i convincing nush in english + chinese that “i should be your girlfriend” which is payback for the amount of bullying nush does unto us.

school was just bad, chinese was just awful but i’m not going to give up, gonna push on for chinese and for math and for goodness knows, anything else.

very disappointed with myself for MI; for the 10% timed essay which we got back today that has started to get me worried about the 40% essay we submitted today. maybe i’m not cut out to take KI after all.

OKAY BUT MORE ABOUT THE HAPPIER STUFF.

okay it wasn’t that jolly taking the photos for drama SYF’s archives, felt like something was missing and some people decided to rant their trashy mood on others which was silly, really, and irritating. i wish we just sent in the photo we took on the day of syf itself, urgh.

CIP at zhenghua primary, quite fun, but yeah shall have to find some time to actually think about what i’m gonna do with those kids and what they need. my biggest problem now is that i’m treating them like p1 little kids because thats what i’m used to dealing with.

came back to school, popped by debates (juniors are doing fine now, much to the relief of everyone, joy!) then went down to change for colours.

ARTHI, I JUST WANNA SAY THANKYOU FOR BEING THE BEST FAIRY GODMOTHER IN THE WORLD

the dress made tonight perfect, and everyone kept telling me how nice the dress was, so YES GIRL, you got good taste

well yes, the actual colours award presentation was rather boring, filled with many speeches (best: malay dance, that girl nearly made me cry. worst: if you have nothing good to say, shut up, which i will.) that i figured were necessary but they should have had some gala thing; i listen better if my stomach isn’t rumbling

okay i don’t really want to say anything negative, but i do feel that people who have not been part of the SYF journey have NO RIGHT to go up there, collect the prize they did not play a part in getting and have no right to chastise or tell the prizewinners what they should/not do. it isn’t logical or justifiable, it just doesn’t make sense.

finality; today’s ceremony brought the SYF journey to a long-delayed end, somewhat, providing some kinda finality, some sorta final goodbye.

the best part about the ceremony was the aftermath. the food, fun, joy & laughter. oh and the camwhoring too.

SAMARTH is really such a gentleman, carried my backpack for me cause he said it didn’t go with my dress and carried my shoes too cause he said it was unglam for me to carry them around without a proper bag. so, thanks dude

went out to KAP with 03 after that, <3. talked about gross stuff over dinner/supper, then samarth sent me all the way to farrer road after that, like the perfect gentleman, making sure i got on the way home safely.

more photos soon, probably on facebook which should really have the photo-grabbing option like friendster. facebook is a fun activity that i am weaning my addiction off.

anyway, lastly, i just wanna take this chance to thank my stinky slaves lovely brothers for always being there for me to punch

(more photos)

oh and last but not least, thankyou yuyun for looking through my MI essay at the unearthly hour of 2am, although over in the US it was the sane time of 2pm. still, <3 and thanks.

time to go write more notes of appreciation to my teachers.

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i need a miracle.

today i burst into an hour long temper flare, then my mood swung and i was back to being cheerful, albeit being quite dao and blackfaced still because i was just so stoned.

i’m abusive, and i have many slaves like nush, estella & chenxi, just to name a few.

i am a mean, horrible and vindictive person who’s trying to cut down on her usage of vulgarities & trying to be more tolerant but not doing that very well.

mind over matter; that’s what i need to remember.

I HATE just can’t do KINEMATICS OMGOSH. hate it so so bad. trying to learn to like it but not very well either. i can “see” where physics ties in to a-math now and that is NOT helping my a-math and neither is it helping my physics. sigh.

physics lab today was really fun, photos+video coming soon once i feel like bluetooth-ing it to my laptop and uploading it onto facebook.

i’m going to swear off facebook today, and focus on finishing bio + that MI essay. and of course, sleeping early because i am really tired and i have to stop using food to keep myself awake in class because as much as i hate to agree with dad, it’s a bad habit.

i have so many things to bitch/rant about today but i shall say it in a protected post instead (ask me for the password if you wanna read it) ;

better be safe than sorry.

being opinionated has it’s drawbacks, feedback session today was quite useful albeit resembling a debate session somewhat; logical rebuttals 101.

okay back to work now.

summertime; and the living is easy.

ruined by a spot of rain.

it rained really really heavily in school today;

totally flooded and my shoes are soaked through ):

rushed home, changed & went out to meet mich at vivo for lunch & shopping.

lunch at LJS and zzomgosh was so tempting to go to B&J which was just opposite. mich, with the advice of the very pro me, bought her new phone, nokia 5300.

yes, i know i have good taste

went to daiso, mich tried convincing me to buy the “sunfish” and “t-rex” stickers to decorate the teachers’ day cards i was planning to give but yeah, didn’t really work, i ended up buying nice envelopes instead because none of the stickers were particularly pleasing. WE WERE LAUGHING LIKE MAD IN DAISO OMGOSH i think the salesgirls must have wondered where these 2 crazy people came from. (mich and i have figured that if we go out everyday, we’ll both end up with flat abs soon from all that laughing, goodness.)

mich nearly bought a new bag, ran out of $1 coins in toys R us (and i got some cutesy little toy i have NO IDEA what it’s use it), resorted to grabbing my jacket to make sure i wasn’t going too fast (despite the fact that both of us are nearly the same height and hence should logically have equally long legs) and then we decided on buying “dice” earrings, so i have one black and one white and she has the other black and the other white.

i think mich needs a muzzle, mich thinks i need a leash. long story.

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school today was fun, more of facebook + LA presentation went quite fine. gillian designed the ppt really really beautifully and professionally. so kudos goes to her. 

i’ve realized fpsp is rather like parliament in some ways. hmm.

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i need to get off facebook and start on my MI essay, have dinner & sleep before 11 tonight because i’m totally zonked.

considering if i should go for NAPFA retest tmrw; quite pointless if i’ll fail anyway right?

i think i’m just gonna ignore the P&C question in the final exam; considering i’ll prolly spend at least 10 minutes trying to figure out the question.

sigh. so much for september holidays. the rain brings tons of gloom to dampen my high spirits.

fell asleep on the bus on the way home today. i really don’t feel like going to school tomorrow, although i have compelling reasons to go (like math & MI & possibly bio.)

oh yeah. bio homework.

dang.

from this moment; paused.

it’s funny how everything can change in just one night;

i’m moving on;

i see your priorities, now it’s time to get mine clear.

and focus on what’s presumably the most important thing.

you’re the afterthought;

goodbye.

if only i could fall into the sky, maybe then time would pass us by.

mostly a fun day today. bio was kinda scary, basketball during PE was a great way to have our last lesson of the term playing a full-court game of basketball. despite not practicing i actually managed to shoot one perfectly beautiful goal which i’m really proud of myself for, heh. =p but i think our class (most of us, anyway.) played it really fair & showed really good sportsmanship.
then was math, got out test back and i actually managed to get an A+, so i’m happy cause at least something’s working out, because after that chinese was just a pure downer la. i’m scraping a C, but it’s the summary that’s dragging me down so given more time, i’m not too worried (yet.)
laoshi tried scaring us into fervently mugging for chinese but kinda failed; i think if you keep on telling someone that they are doing really badly (which is really, really demoralizing) and imply that they are stupid or are faring worse than their seniors, it’s a tad incoherent to later say that, “oh but don’t worry,  you can still do well, though.”
but i’m still gonna try harder for chinese; for once i’m not letting dislike get in my way of an A, but instead that dislike is my fuel to get rid of the subject ASAP.
went to parliament house after that, was quite interesting going there a second round and listening to what they had to say. i guess i actually find this kinda stuff fun, and i wish they’d give us stuff to take notes down cause it’s hard to me to just digest what people are saying without notes.
was quite fun discussing the parliament stuff with arthi also
i guess we were the few people who actually cared about what  was going on.:P
i think if an interesting issue comes up in the future, i’m likely to wanna go to parliament to hear what it’s about, especially now that i know it’s open to the public. haha.
well yes, sinfully ate tons today, incluing that really nice chocolate muffin thingum and hello panda. in between classes today, played around facebook adding applications and having food fights with sherlene & nush, just to name a few. lol.
these are probably the last vestiges of a possibly less stressful secondary school life (as compared to JC life next year, which is still in the unknown) and i guess i’m just gonna have as much fun as i can.
colours award presentation on thursday! and i’m meeting mich tmrw for lunch, so i guess i’m quite a lucky/happy person today besides getting a little emo after getting my marks for chinese just now (i got so pissed off, i was scribbling random lyrics because i just felt so frustrated. until i realized that i didn’t flunk the paper, just got dragged down by summary, which made me feel alot better. minus the summary my paper was a very decent B+, which of course is some kinda comfort).
considering that i’m going out for the whole of tomorrow and skiving off my homework having fun, i should really finish up that stats project today, and find my notes for MI and start on that MI essay that everyone seems to be halfway through or done already.

i guess it was worth it walking around today with pins stuck in my head so my hair was reasonably neat, for the first time in a very long time. heh.
rawr, i feel like going to ikea for dinner and following up at B&J for dessert. maybe once i clear one evening up, if i ever do get that chance.
until then, i will try to keep to my healthy diet and limit the intake of pimple-causing chocolates and increase my intake of water.:D

wish u were here.

slept at 1130 last night, woke up 1030 this morning, figured 11 hours of sleep didn’t take away that much of eyebags but took away quite alot of fatigue.

i am so glad that term holidays are just 5 days away; which means more sleep.

first session of DEP today, wasn’t as scary as i thought it would be and i did manage to learn quite abit so

dug up my old debates notebook for today’s session. found it under a stack of things from april; i haven’t touched my notebook since JGs ended.

was just flipping through my notebook on my way home when i was surprised to find stuff scribbled in the corner of random, otherwise blank pages; an undated poem entitled “this way” which i have no recollection of writing, a letter i never gave, and some things i had felt note-worthy.

“sometimes you just can’t make it on your own. so don’t. there are people around you for a reason.”

i think i can remember who said it to me, but i had no idea i had written it down.  i guess i figured i’d need that bit of strength one day, and saved it in the place where i’d least expect to find it.

things change; but life moves on i guess. this year has been a major turning point for me, and i guess i’m glad i’m not longer as anti-NJ as before, and it’s surprisingly due to people who aren’t exactly pro-NJ either.

this is why school is fun.

time to finish up my chinese homework, and maybe start on the MI essay everyone seems to be doing this weekend instead of indulging in contemplative thoughts that edge on being emo, or go running to get this all outta my system.

i know things will never be the same again; but that’s life & i’m learning to live with it, because i can’t treasure the present unless i let go of the past.

i’ve done it before and i’ll do it again; and each time i’ll learn something i gained.

having so much to say; watching you walk away.

she’s going out to forget they were together
all the time he was taking her they took each other for granted

;this goodbye might last forever, or it just might make us stronger. 

term 3’s coming to an end,  2007’s coming to an end – the rains are testament to the monsoon season coming early, but nonetheless i have one week left to the end of term 3, and after that one last term before i officially renounce being a secondary school student.

although i’m in NJ and it has never really sunk into me being sec3/4 but rather just being ip1/2,  point remains that next year i’m going to be ip3, gonna join mainstream, finally gonna start the JC life.

no more 03; my class is mostly gonna take p/c/b, stuff i’m shunning. so i won’t be seeing much of my class. funny, just when i’ve started to love them i realize that well, our time together’s kinda coming to an end.

not that i’m not looking forward to life without the sciences; i just tried telling dad again this morning that i’m not him i don’t like chemistry, and if i’m not taking chemistry i can’t take biology or physics even if i wanted to. i honestly wouldn’t mind taking it at h1, but everyone says don’t bother so i won’t. mum doesn’t care about what i take, but dad finds it hard to accept that unlike him, i’m not a whiz at math, physics, chemistry & geography.

i don’t see a correlation between a-math & physics still. my chemistry has never been good, and getting an A would be a fluke i’d work hard towards, and geography… i guess i’ll just leave that in as an option for now instead of history.

dad actually wants me to take chinese again next year. i nearly combusted right there in the car. NO WAY. this year has been the year that has really, really turned me off taking chinese totally. i just wanna get it over and done with.

(congrats, i used to hate chinese before in primary school, but never with such intensity.)

china studies in english, maybe i wouldn’t mind but taking chinese as a subject?

me: dad, here’s how it goes. even if you put a gun to my head, i wouldn’t take chemistry. that’s number 1 on the list, followed by chinese.

i think he got the idea. (thankfully?)

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dance class today, just before my class was some grade 1 kids and they look SO CUTE. i’m watching them do the basics & having so much fun, but i guess unlike the transition from primary to secondary school, tap is always fun even at higher grades. and our performance is coming up in september, which mean we get to do tribal fusion for only just the trillionth time :p somehow i never get really bored/sick of dancing that. heh.

woke up this morning at 10, despite nearly 10 hours of sleep i was still tired. i think i’ll sleep at 10 tonight.

once i finish the pile of homework that honestly seems to never, ever end.