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oooh today was awesome!!
Okay last night was bad, i crashed out :/
so tonight i will try to sleep early BUT IT NEVER WORKS OH DEAR.
dance this morning!!! i just realized that if i go to UK, i won’t be able to participate in the dance recital next december… which means last december’s one was my last.
i never thought about that when i was performing. although i’m pretty sure i gave it my all, still 
but anyway dance today was good!! although the dance is pretty challenging, we’ve been doing it for a few months already so its getting easier to handle, in a way.
lunch with dad, then lots of quality bonding time with daddy
went to popular and bought a whole range of highlighers so now my pencilcase is gonna have to be emptied abit cos its just a little bit too full at the moment HAHA.
dad’s gone off to china for the rest of the month, feels odd to have the weekends to myself. then again, i’m sure i’ll fill it up! as i have done so before.
haha i happened to be looking at the website of my primary school (cos someone was showing me something) and i found out that they have a musical coming up, and they’ve invited their distinguished alumni, in this case irene ang, to perform in it. SO EXCITING!! perhaps one day i will be distinguished alumni too
but i do want to go back to theatre. i’ve been so, so far away from it… (okay actually its only been 7 months.)
HAHA.
on a side note, went to the library today and saw this book review about this book entitled “an abundance of katherines” by john green. ‘cos this guy keeps falling for girls named katherine. the book seemed interested enough so i flipped around and saw this:
its about the guy who misses katherine #19 so much that … well, he just shatters. and the way he writes abuot how he misses her, and why he misses her… i guess i’m just a total sucker for romance but the sentence that struck me the most was the last one in that paragraph.
you can love someone so much, he thought. but you can never love people as much as you miss them.
it brought to mind something from catherine lim’s a leap of love, where the protagonist, li-ann makes a witty quip about how, in love letters, the most common word isn’t “love” but “miss”.
and i guess those words just screamed out at me.
can you miss someone more than you love them? i think you can. and i think missing someone is the most heartwrenching feeling. i hate watching people walk away from me, unless i know they’re coming back in the near future i.e. next 5 minutes.
otherwise, i’m just filled with some sort of sadness.
the kind of emptiness that nothing much else manages to fill, really.
i’ve realized though, that setting yourself up with high hopes, and always hoping that things will turn around for the better, or for some pleasant surprise… just leads to more heartache and tears. hoping, wishing… these are all things the idealist does, but unless an idealist finds another idealist, these are also things that could break your heart.
the only thing you can do is have a faint hope, somewhere at the back of your mind, that something pleasant is going to happen, and that hope keeps you going whenever times are bad. and makes the rare surprise one that really matters.
yeah. just a thought.
