nothing hurts, when i go to sleep;

waiting for math papers to be returned today was er, painful.
getting the papers back didn’t make things any better.

somehow, although he was miles away, my dear ol’ pal made his presence felt.
i felt like crying, i felt crushed, i felt a million things but as always, DMZXZ made me feel better… after a while. (THANK YOU. you saved me, as always)

this is the first time in my entire JC life i’ve had to deal with failure. i’ve lived through 18 months without anything crushing my ego, finally in the haven where i never needed to touch those subjects i hated and dreaded. until math turned around and became the enemy.

it stings only because i care, AND it matters. like never before. i didn’t care about phy/chem/bio/geog and i doubt i ever will. HLME for me, all the way. but what happens when you try, and you fail? it hurts. especially since this is my one shot at going overseas that i never knew i wanted so much until it was too late to make sure i’d get what i wanted.

i’ve lived through most of my life not caring – i think i preferred life that way :/

today narcolepsy (by ben folds five) was just SCREAMING through my head and i’m not very sure why either. but it was.

AUDREY <3 brought my reese’s AWESUMZ !!! her sister, cheryl, bought them from the US.
ahh, UK/US have GOOD CHOCOLATE. or rather, good candy yumyum!!
stuffed my face with chocolate during break to just forget about crying and think… more positively.

ran off after school to sakae to meet B for SUSHI BUFFET!!!!!
we had 26 place between us PLUS the red plates and dessert etc! which was just really cool.
binges really do help take your mind of things. and B did a good job of cheering me up too

i’m really grateful for all the people around me. but ATM i am srsly tired (!!) aaaand i have a ton of work to do which i should shoo off and do HAHA BYEBYE.