i’ll follow you into the dark.

i really shouldn’t be up so late but lately i haven’t been keeping track of the time.
BUT when the new week begins i will
-start studying for SATs. or rather, preparing cos i don’t think you can really study for it per se.
-pack my room
-clear up the mess that i’ve made in the house

dad’s strict orders are that my end-of-year trip to malaysia with my friends is a no-go unless i clear up the room and the house. i think even if i get an SAT score >2300, an untidy house will deny me the break i deserve.

although THE PAST FOUR DAYS HAVE BEEN SO INCREDIBLY AWESOME, ONBOARD THE STAR CRUISE LIBRA! so grateful to my aunt who brought me there. it was… like whoa.

-watched angels and demons
-lunch + dinner + supper, all with soup + appetizers + main course + dessert and i’m SUCHA PIG, i either had 2 rounds of appetizers (cos its served buffet format) and 2 rounds of dessert OR i had 2 main courses. totally insane right? and i could still eat after that.
-the most amazing dance performances!
-the funny, witty hosts!
-THE BEST PART IS THE SEA BREEZE ON THE DECK. TO BE IN THE OPEN SEA. no phone reception, no annoying noises, no buildings just the sun (or the moon), the sky and the sea and the breeze, OH THE BREEZE!

i will never forget this trip for as long as i live. and i will never, ever forget how the wind brushed every single hair on my arm and lifted my soul. it was so amazing. there was a slight drizzle and i just stood there and let the wind sway me…

every single hour was packed with some activity or another!
and the earliest i slept was like, 2 am?

wore all my nice dresses, including a new maxi dress (present from aunt!) which suits me to a T, and saw people in really nice dresses too. there’s a lemon one i was eyeing, for the colour, and another lady who wore dresses that i thought were my style. i wouldn’t mind having her wardrobe except that she’s about 2 or 3 sizes bigger than me!

currently reading pride and prejudice and doing alot of sudokus. life is good, PTL!

i didn’t want to come back to singapore, but i am back here and well. life looks exciting, shopping and movie tomorrow

PHOTOS SOOON
(++ detailed thankyous to the people who kept me alive during As. WATCH THIS SPACE.)

GONNA BE OOOKAY!

HELLO MY A LEVELS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!

purgatory, high school etc. etc. NO MORE.
grey elephant? NO MORE.
waiting at farrer road? NO MORE.

and i am now OFF ON A CRUISE with my aunt but would just like to make a quick thank you first to the buncha people who have kept me sane -

estella, lavania, basil, grace, johnson, nush, jeremy, esther
AND A WHOLE LOT OF OTHER PEOPLE.

more to come in my next post.

TO THOSE WHO STILL HAVE EXAMS, KEEP ON KEEPING ON.
FREEDOM/LIBERATION IS WORTH THE FIGHT.

you’re so gay.

to quote katy perry -

“YOU’RE SO GAY
AND YOU DON’T EVEN LIKE BOYS”

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BUT YOU REALLY ARE VERY GAY.
I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU JUST SAID SOMETHING AS WIMPY AS THAT.

caught in a bad romance.

i was blog hopping and saw fer’s blog about how she’d like a hello kitty house & all the relevant accessories -

considering how i am currently sweating like mad from listening to lady gaga’s bad romance approxx half a dozen times and dancing along to it, i think my future house MUST HAVE A DANCE STUDIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and of course if i’m rich enough, a band room too.

note to self:
after hunting the whole of best denki for a new pair of earphones and getting an excellent, good quality pair at the bargain bin price of $29, try to make it last for at least another 6 months just to prove your parents/friends/cat wrong that you can’t keep any earphone working :/

c-c-c-change your life now.

you know how in twilight, edward says to bella
“you are my life now”

well i think someone’s gonna say to me, in a few days
“she is my life now”

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i’m v v v excited!

waiting on the world to change;

ooooh, i’m starting to love fridays

1. no more econs! which is quite a bittersweet feel. but i’m sure i’ll do at least one or two econs modules in uni. okay, if i have space after taking the theatre modules. but yeah, i’m not saying “goodbye, forever” to econs unlike the “GO AWAY FOREVER PLEASE” that i said to history and math.

2. only one paper left!!

3. next few days will just be lit, lit and more lit. life should be like this! (i’m going to make this my uni life so yeah.)

4. went to see the cutest dog in the whole world today! she’s 3 months old, and she’s such a darling. ohh man can’t wait to spend more time with her!

5. NEW MOON COMES OUT IN THE USA TODAY. so, soon, i’ll get to watch it, either in malaysia or singapore.

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BIGGEST GROUSE OF THE WEEK:

MACROPOLICIES DIDN’T COME OUT FOR A LEVELS LIKE AT ALL LIKE OMG THAT’S HALF THE J2 SYLLABUS GONE?
AND IT HAPPENS TO BE MY FAVOURITE, MOST LOVED TOPIC.

but no, dear old cambridge decided it wasn’t worth setting

oh and actually i’m starting to wish a levels would last longer. i don’t mind studying lit heehee. DO NOT WANT TO CLEAR UP THE MESS THAT IS MY ROOM!

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other news this week:
- went to watch the informant! with my mum last night cos i was bored of studying econs + there isn’t much to study for case study anw. it was quite funny!! not in the laugh out loud kinda way but like dark humour. yeah, i won’t give anything away but matt damon put up some really good, convincing acting that made me feel for him.

- basil bought me a starbucks tumbler! i wanted the christmas one at first but decided on the design-your-own tumbler instead so i can put the christmas design (taken from the starbucks paper bag lol) for now, and change it after christmas! ingenius or not!

- IMMA HAPPY GIRL

“ever the best of friends”

my time management problems are starting to annoy even myself
i dont know how to prioritize
my self-esteem is taking a beating because i’m starting to lack confidence in myself
wasting time on things i’m scared i don’t know because i’m scared that i’ll somehow forget ….. yeah very funny i know my lit texts too well, i know enough for econs to get myself somewhere.

last week i could just “not care” – this week everything means the world to me and

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my earphones just spoilt. if you don’t already know, my phone + iPod are necessities for me.

am i disappointing myself, or the world, or both?

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this is weird, but i am really, really gonna miss my lit texts. i really like dickens. and i’ve even grown some kinda of love for webster too. okay maybe love for webster is slightly extreme, perhaps some form of respect rather than just a “hello plays are supposed to be grounded in reality not your warped up mind”.

i don’t think many people will agree with me, or feel the same way, but i think great expectations is one of the best books ever written & i’m so glad that mr. whitby chose that as our text, even though it’s a really lengthy book.

AND NOW. TO FACE ECONS.

we all have our greatest enemies. i think it was marlow who commented that our worst enemy is ourselves. i really feel like i haven’t done enough for litt, and now it’s too late.

but i know it’s out of my hands, so i really, really need to get a grip and stop being so. insecure. annoying. and fixated with my failures.

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on the bright side, thank God that i never have to bring great expectations into an exam hall again because it’s falling apart and looks as if its been in my possession for 10,000 years and read about 100,000 times. when its only been around for 2, and read about half a dozen times. the state it’s in makes me think that i might have read it more than just a few times, but forgot.

i don’t know anymore.

i need to survive, tonight, tonight.

there are times i don’t want to believe in love anymore, because it hurts you so badly.
love lost, love unrequited, love abused, love comes in many forms and it isn’t a panacea to problems in life.

i wish that i never believed in the love. there’s magic, there’s nice warm fuzzy feelings, but there’s bitterness and resentment and so, so much regret.

someone said to me the other day that if _ happened to me, she would totally believe in love. i think one day, _ might be the only thing that would make me believe in love again.

another one of my friends blogged that she wanted to give up on love. i second that feeling right now, and i say to all of those who aren’t giving up on love just yet (including myself) -

good luck. you’ll need it.

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i’m okay. just disillusioned.

cos you’re hot & you’re cold.

horrible blocked nose, horrible rain, jacket too thin (threadless pullover here i come once A levels are over) -

and today i realized that stc won’t be like, 3 minutes away but like, 30 minutes away?! i am seriously considering cabbing to school everyday. please let some kind teacher live near me and be willing to cab with me OR EVEN BETTER, drive me to school

the school is moving from lower delta to commonwealth. that’s like, a 961 (accursed bus) away? sobs. i guess not so perfect after all.

anw i suddenly have a thing for katy perry. heh. i realized that i need to stop slacking && acting like As are over because i should be writing tons and tons of essays since thats how anyone who wants to get anywhere for econs and lit would do……..

so yes bye. i’ve realized that memorizing historical dates is somewhat pointless to me, but i dont mind memorizing the events. howevrer, when it comes to memorizing the plot of my lit texts…. well that just comes very naturally and i love it so, very, much.

i hope i get to teach lit next year, i want to have a lit text to read and evaluate