someday i’ll find someone who really understands.

Boston, by Augustana

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun…
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must’ve crossed…
You said…

You don’t know me, you don’t even care, oh yeah,
She said, You don’t know me, and you don’t wear my chains… oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field, When flowers gaze at you… they’re not the only ones who cry
When they see you…
You said…

You don’t know me, you don’t even care, oh yeah,
She said, You don’t know me, and you don’t wear my chains… oh yeah,

She said I think I’ll go to Boston…
I think I’ll start a new life,
I think I’ll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I’ll get out of California, I’m tired of the weather,
I think I’ll get a lover and fly em out to Spain…
I think I’ll go to Boston,
I think that I’m just tired,
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind…
I think I need a sunrise, I’m tired of the sunset,
I hear it’s nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice… oh yeah,

Boston… where no one knows my name… yeah
Where no one knows my name…
Where no one knows my name…
Yeah Boston…
Where no one knows my name.

my blue heaven.

i couldn’t face another math lesson today, or going through GP because i’m sick of feeling like i’ve done something terribly, terribly wrong. so i wound up sleeping at home instead because i just felt so tired of everything. came to school just for OP which went okay (i’m a little scared that dry run is just next week, and everything seems to be coming so soon.) and i’m quite happy because i’m back to lotsa braiding (i’ve completed 4 friendship bands in the past 2 days).

stayed back for debates just now, to prepare for open day! ended up going to island creamery instead which was really fun. i’ve forgotten how much i miss the times with the debaters. and i definitely forgot how good island creamery ice cream is! i’m suddenly quite looking forward to open day, even though… i could really do with the spare time :/ for PW, for church, and to somehow in between that, squeeze in time for my mum’s friend’s house party

anyway. this song is just my song for the moment. it’s the kind of song that i can run to, the kind that cheers me up when i’m down, the kind of song that’s okay for any occasion, a song that i suddenly really like.

i. dread. tomorrow. (i don’t even dare to think in detail about what’s going to happen, no.)
i’m scared.

my blue heaven (by taking back sunday)

Two sides twist and then collide;
You’re calling off the guards (Am I coming?)
I’m coming through. (Am I coming?)
Adulterous conditioned to a spin cycled submission,
You know, sometimes it just feels better to give in.
(Sometimes, it just feels better to give in.)

And it’s all too familiar, and it happens all the time.
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisting heartache into fine little pieces that avoid an awful crime,
But it’s you I can’t deny.
(You I can’t deny.)

Dull heat rises from the sheets.
I’m both a patient boy, well, and a jealous man. (Am I coming?)
My double standardized suspicion is remedied, oh, my blue heaven,
Sometimes, it just feels better to give in.
(Sometimes, it just feels better to give in.)

We swing and we sway as this tiny voice in my head starts to sing
You’re safe, child, you are safe.
(You’re safe, child, you are safe.)
You’re safe, child, you are safe.

Is this all too familiar? Does it happen all the time?
I’m just asking you to hear me.
Could you please, just once, just hear me?
More then anything you wanted to be right.
Still it’s you, you, it’s you I can’t deny.
(You I can’t deny.)
It’s you I can’t deny.

happy ending – mika.

This is the way you left me – I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory – No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love – Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life -But not together

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can’t get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I’m wasted, and I’m wastin’ everyday

This is the way you left me – I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory – No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love – Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life – But not together.

2 o’clock in the morning, something’s on my mind
Can’t get no rest; keep walkin’ around
If I pretend that nothin’ ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

just, entirely hooked to this song.
i feel as if there’s something wrong with me, but i’m not sure what.

i’m not looking forward to anything, not even SMUN which i’ve been so excited about. it’s hard to be excited when you get a sense of impending doom, for many reasons. i usually speak without thinking, regardless of whether i have information to back me up. i think i actually really appreciate my team for watching my back now – in a few days time, i’ll be out there, and hopefully i’ll have the information to back myself up. sigh :/

or maybe this is a sign that i should sit back and listen – but that’s something i might never learn to do. well. we’ll see. ):

oh yeah, and packing for SMUN just leaves me utterly depressed. i’ve been putting it off because … i look eiither out of shape or fat in nearly everything. i wonder if it’s the clothes, or if it’s just me because everything seems to be going wrong.

true.

“This next song i’m gonna sing is called true. And this is my song, my love song.
It’s about those times kinda at the beginning stages of the relationship where you don’t really know what’s gonna happen, so you’re kinda nervous like “does she likes me? does she not like me?” So, i was kinda at that stage where you don’t know and it like kills you, but it’s kinda like the fun part too.
…but you don’t know that till after all the pain.

This song’s called true.” (Ryan Cabrera, a preamble to his acoustic set of “True”)

I won’t talk, I won’t breathe; I won’t move till you finally see that you belong with me
You might think I don’t look, but deep inside in the corner of my mind, I’m attached to you
I’m weak, its true -cause I’m afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too? cause my heart keeps falling faster

I’ve waited all my life, to cross this line -to the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide, its time to try – anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited -This is true

You don’t know what you do; everytime you walk into the room, I’m afraid to move
I’m weak, Its true -Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too? Do you even know you met me?

I know when I go i’ll be on my way to you – The way that’s true.

sometimes there are things that words alone aren’t able to express, and sometimes lyrics manage to encompass some of that feeling. i should be sleeping, but i… just can’t.

you’ll always be my baby.

We were as one, for a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting; that you would always be mine
Now you want to be free, so I’m letting you fly
‘Cause I know in my heart, our love will never die

You’ll always be a part of me; I’m part of you indefinitely
Don’t you know you can’t escape me , Oh darling ’cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on; Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re ever gonna shake me, Oh darling, ’cause you’ll always be my baby

-

i should be sleeping, but mum insisted the american idols grand finale was something i shouldn’t miss, after watching the past few seasons avidly, and giving up on watching this season because i’d either forget to watch it or i just wasn’t free.

i <3 david cook, omg. downloading all his music videos now he is so good! he is the real deal. i don’t know why the judges think the other kid is so much better than him — the other guy’s good, he’s cute, but he doesn’t have enough stage presence :S i don’t deny that he can sing though, like really well.

i can’t even talk but i can sing. and my throat still hurts. rar.

david cook -
he’s got a really good voice, an overwhelming stage presence (in a good way — he commands/controls the stage), the best love songs, the cutest fringe, the coolest guitar, so it’s okay that he’s abit pudgy, he got everything else right!! HEH. PERFECT GUY. (see, i really don’t ask for alot.) and his perfection is enhanced especially after simon’s comments that he’s one of the contestants who’ve managed to keep it real, one of the few in the 7 seasons of contestants that he’s seen who’re just so … themselves. YEAH. score one more point for him! <3<3<3!

“& i don’t want to miss a thing.”

everyone’s looking round thinking i’m going crazy

help my sms bill is busting.

i won’t lie, i can’t be a hypocrite, but i won’t be mean either.
all i can say is that today didn’t turn out as expected;

what i thought i’d get i didn’t, but what i thought i wouldn’t get i did.
maybe i’m just being a sore loser but i think what i got was better than what i lost.

it’s so so so so so so so so so so so not fair. not just to me but to many others too. seriously.
i could think of a thousand substantiations on how this system is screwed but it wouldn’t make a difference because it won’t change anything.

all i can say is, thank you suzy for being there, for listening and for making me feel better. (: you know i love you.

-

Over the mountains and the sea
Your river runs with love for me
And I will open up my heart
And let the healer set me free
I’m happy to be in the truth
And I will daily lift my hands
For I will always sing
Of when your love came down

I could sing of your love forever
I could sing of your love forever
I could sing of your love forever
I could sing of your love forever

Oh, I feel like dancing
This foolishness, I know
But when the world has seen the light
They will dance with joy
Like we’re dancing now

-

i offer up all my successes, failures, hopes and dreams up to the Lord, for He will provide.

i will not whine, because the Lord has already been kind, has already blessed me with so many things, and i am grateful and glad. (:

bleeding love.

i realized, after close analysis of the lyrics, how fitting they are. leona lewis is one of the best newbie performers i’ve seen in a long time.
someone for me to aspire to be like, and i think i choose good role models.
watched leona lewis on american idol and she was wow.
and whoever wrote this song is wow too.
-

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth

My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

crazy.

Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won’t stop ’till they reach their dreams
Diet pills, surgery
Photoshop pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn’t make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy
Is anybody gonna save me
Can anybody tell me what’s goin’ on
Tell me what’s goin’ on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that somethin’ is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There’s no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Makin’ kids feel like it’s World War III
No one cares, no one’s there
I guess we’re all just too damn busy
And money’s our first priority
It doesn’t make sense to me

Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see,
Rich guys driving big SUV’s
While kids are starving in the streets

No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life’s unfair
-
i can’t pretend i don’t care.

an afternoon of simple plan and our lady peace awaits and hopefully this ensures i actually get some homework done. i’m dying for a swim =x

away from the sun.

i went blog hopping. going to do vectors homework now. wonder when i’ll actually get down to sleeping.

caught this song in some old post on someone’s blog.

away from the sun by 3 doors down. i think it’s time for me to reload my mp3 player with new songs =p

It’s down to this
I’ve got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I’ve done
I miss the life
I miss the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am

‘Cause now again I’ve found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I’m so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I’m over this
I’m tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling’s gone
There’s nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know

And now again I’ve found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I’m so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I’m so far down, away from the sun again

losing grip.

the cliched song i have started loving again after obs (especially the bus ride back ahah), GIRLFRIEND.

the remix rocks, and my fav line is:

so when you see me in the drop top shades
in the summer time blazin you wanna be my boyfriend.

after nearly going emo just now i realized i should just forget it.

after nearly losing my life, i just have to think back and man am i glad to be alive, however painful it gets.

painful because mum and dad are unshaken and unfazed that i nearly died wtf, and painful cause my wound hurt like … when i was bathing.
then again, there are those who prolly definitely get it worse.
so i shall just be grateful that… for all the happy things i can be grateful for.

like chocolates and music.

i love my life, i love it that i’m still alive because i have too much to live for, i really don’t wanna die.