have i found you, flightless bird?

was supposed to go to sentosa today but it rained
ended up going to marina instead and somehow loads of people were hanging around there today, including dear ol’ KANG-AN!!! was really quite shocked to see him.

today i realized that although b’s ipod is smaller than mine, his screen is bigger
how sad. my ipod is beautiful and steady but i think i will be quite glad to move on when it dies. which, i hope, will not be soon cos it’s only like, less than 2 years old!

dinner at brotzeit with mum was good stuff. and also an extravagant waste of money. i’ve realized that espirit dresses are really nice and also another extravagant waste of money really expensive :/

somehow, i kinda can’t wait to work and earn money and get that adidas jacket i’ve always wanted. and shop at espirit where dresses are actually long enough for me. but then again, i don’t really want to work either.

before i even get there, i’ll need to survive the 2 lit tests this week first. :/

and so it is, just like you said it would be.

am trying very hard to RUMMAGE THROUGH MY WARDROBE to find something nice, decent and THIS should actually not be THAT hard but i’m being really picky because this feels like a job interview ‘cept that i really need to STOP FREAKING OUT (and say that to myself a few more times too and actually mean it) ‘cos i’m just you know, thinking too much as usual and being a WORRIER and just.

…
(whatever. i need to calm down. what’s the worst that could happen? well, nothing that could keep me down.}

and tomorrow is mother’s day.
i told dad about my “surprise” plans (second surprise i’ve planned this week)
dad said: since when do you celebrate this kinda thing?
i’ve celebrated the past few father’s days with my dad i think. or at least his birthday.
i think he’s just abit surprised someone is actually caring for my mum because he staunchly refuses to celebrates anniversaries, birthdays and other special days.

funnily enough, i’ve spent quite a few of my birthdays in malaysia because of him.
and this year, the one year i’d really like to spend in singapore, he’s decided it would be nice for me to have a joint celebration with my cousin who’s already drinking alcohol, and can drive too. while i try to stay legal and am not allowed to drive.
EQUITY does not exist, i tell you.

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okay but today, minus the preparations (i.e. worrying) for tomorrow, was quite good
CG outing was quite fun, celebrated lavania and estella’s birthday.
then youth was quite good too lovelovelove worship sessions. just sing and just. yeah.
i like that

and now i shall go prepare myself for Tomorrow.