some things are just irreplaceable.
so i hobbled to school with a fever and got nothing out of it but some sadness and regret that i didn’t try hard enough, didn’t prepare enough.
i blame it on my dormant brain cells. i think i’m just dazed and suffering from obs withdrawal i guess.
after OBS, i’ve come to terms that i should just take whatever life gives me, love and appreciate it and… just live with it.
my ankle feels swollen even though it doesn’t hurt anymore. daddy called while i was in school so i couldn’t pick up, but i can’t wait to talk to him later.
itchy itchy me very itchy.
i’ve learnt to appreciate my music better. i can hear every single separate beat, and the separate instruments and backup and everything. crystal clear 
my soul moves with the music.
drowning in your music.
my current playlist is kinda cool.
clumsy and innocent by our lady peace,
selfless, cold & composed and where’s summer b by ben folds five,
girlfriend, dance floor anthem, yellow, blue and yellow, home, just watch the fireworks.
i think it classifies as emo.
couldn’t sleep last night because it was so quiet. it was cold so i switched off the aircon. i have a 37.7degrees celsius fever but i’ve been feeling really cold.
the jumper/pullover i bought from OBS has been my best friend for the past 36 hours.
the pain in my ankle subsided this morning. it was really bad last night. went to the doctor and he said its a combination of a sprained ankle and an infection. so now i have tons of medication to consume and apply. sigh.
TO TOP IT ALL OFF, i dont even get to miss PE. doctor said i’m excused for the “next few days”, which just doesn’t happen to include monday. *wails*
on the bright side, i reweighed myself this morning, i’m only 53.5kg, which means i didn’t put on THAT much weight. and if i can do PE, i can go running and keep my body in shape and lose whatever poundage i’ve gained from pamela’s really nice rice she cooked during OB, and get rid of all that water retention thingum.
so i conveniently have been banned from dance class this saturday, i have to get an ankle guard and RAHHHHH. i have been in a “clueless” kinda mood for the past 48 hours, where i am in semi-comatose state and i have no clue what i am doing/saying.
i don’t even feel feverish but i have a fever. i really hope i get well soon, gah.
yay obml outing later! and mummy’s bringing home lunch for me. 
school after that, then back home to SLEEEEEEEEEEP.
P.s: IP1/2s, our timetable is out on KM under the announcements. look under the previous announcements cos its quite some time back. if not collect the hard copy from your letter tray or ask me on MSN for the soft copy!
P.s2: I LOVE 03
i can make it through the rain, i can stand up once again.
i will not go all emo about how much i miss lumut. it was fun but moaning is something i will try to stop doing
on the bright side, i am no longer sick with a cough or flu, phew. on the dark and stormy side, my ankle is really swollen and it hurts alot.
i am hungry, it’s 10plus and i’m still gonna eat even though i have become chubbier. pam says its just water retention so hopefully it goes away soon !
MY ANKLE REALLY HURTS. i would take panadol so the pain would go away but i need to eat first. and i’m trying not to rely on it too much. it can’t been good to become over reliant on something like panadol.
anyway, i’m still rather dazed. phone seems rather foreign to me, laptop too. if i don’t make sense i’m sorry, i’m really not in a very clear state of mind now.
i figure i’ll prolly be getting off PE for a while. which is sad cause i’m kinda fit now and could prolly pass napfa (i.e. incline pull-ups. heh.)
haven’t managed to talk to daddy yet, kinda worried >.< i really wanna know what’s wrong with my ankle. and i want to get well soon. D:
but despite my rather gloomy post, OBML was really fun and i really did enjoy it. even the storm was kinda nice, seeing the waves crash up close was scary yet amazingly beautiful. if i can train up my physical strength i wanna go for OBMS, i.e. OBS in sabah (but must train first la!)
I LOVE YOU LUMUT
to serve, to strive and not to yield.
after 10 days away from civilization, both my handphone, mp3 player and laptop feel foreign to me.
OBML ROCKED. even with the high casualty rate =x but it was really really fun !
in summary, we climbed mount bubu and kayaked alot. climbing to the campsite was quite simple, but the second leg of the journey to the peak was alot more difficult. later on i realized i was dehydrated =/
but THANKYOU CHIANSIANG for literally lending me a hand countless number of times, without you i would NEVER EVER have made it to the peak. (okay fine, if you gave me a few weeks, maybe i would reach it :p)
then we slacked around and cleaned up everything and blah blah, THANKYOU to my darling room mates charvi, audrey and sneha for making this unforgettable.
then it came to kayaking. i think i have muscles now :p THANKYOU to all my kayaking partners, and i am sorry you had me as your partner, i know i’m kinda really bad =/ so thank you denise, leo and especially chris!
chris and the instructor fauzi saved my life when this big storm hit. i think i am going to get nightmares about it still. about the screams of those who capsized. =x but i am glad i am alive, and i really appreciate my life now.
so i survived the storm unscathed. then the next day my ankle started swelling and hurting badly. rah. so now i have a swollen ankle and severe water retention and I PUT ON WEIGHT GAH D: (possibly cause i ate alot, and hopefully cause i grew muscles! =p)
i am glad to be home. i really missed many people here although the stars in lumut are REALLY NICE. plentiful and beautiful
i guess i shall unpack and all now. more later. talking to minying now haha. <333!
down to one last breath.
i am so bored.
after spending most of my afternoon stoning, 2 hours over lunch, and then packing my bag with much frustration, i am finally like, done for the day.
AND OMGOSH MY BAG IS BIGGER THAN ME. width-wise and breadth-wise. pfft. dad took my diadora bag and i have no idea where it is so i have no choice but to use my fugly reebok. gah.
i think i am suffering from insomnia. this past week i havent been able to sleep properly. especially today. it’s either nerves, pressure or plain i’m demented/depressed. i’d go with all of the above actually.
okay thanks fer for the advice, and the sandals. after ugly betty, i shall try to talk myself to sleep.
please pray for me when i’m gone that i will come back safely.
thanks. <3
save the best for last
omgosh i am falling sick.
okay technically i am currently sick and i am not well yet. got up this morning and couldnt even walk to the kitchen to get water because my head was seriously spinning so bad.
then i started breaking out in cold sweat. but i wasn’t having a fever! i think it was from the medication i was taking. i took it 4 hours apart instead of 6 hours apart and on an empty stomach too. okay like after i took the pill i realized i was supposed to eat something, so i grabbed chocolate from the fridge.
bah. i have to get well by tomorrow ! and i still haven’t finished packing yet, this whole big mess is staring at me.
the bells just sung, july has come. hopefully its gonna be a good month.
i like this song, the lyrics are really nice. it’s “saved the best for last” by vanessa williams.
when everything goes wrong, you know something’s not right.
this is just perfect.
i am leaving for OBS in less than 30 hours and am having a runny nose and a sore throat.
i feel deeply sorry for myself, because its now 1.25am and i have just finished packing for OBS.
okay actually i haven’t even finished yet. i’ve just decided what to bring.
plus the aunty cheated me ! i bought the ziplocks from her and she said that they were a4 sized, turns out they are freaking small and i cant even fit ONE SHIRT into ONE BAG. omg i am so pissed.
i need a torch and a cap and MEDICINE OMG and ziplock bags.
this is just so insane. i am going to sleep and hopefully i wake up tomorrow and this will all just be a dream.
i had a really nice dream saturday morning. it centred around debates. haha.
I REALLY HOPE I GET WELL SOON BECAUSE I REALLY NEED TO.
i just feel sicker and sicker and sicker gah.
i really wish the skies could always be this blue and pretty
other than from the track/grandstand, the skies in NJ look the prettiest from the IP classrooms. especially right outside darling 03
but i think you do.
oh no! i think i am falling sick.
it started like, yesterday. a tickling of the throat, and now its a full blown sore throat.
packing for OBS now. i have tons of stuff to buy gah. dad tried scolding me into going to the doctor today, but as usual i really don’t think its bad enough yet.
my cat sits in odd positions. haha
