a love that never fails.

HAVEN’T HAD SUCH A GREAT DAY IN AGES

went to visit b’s church today! i really love it how his church is just down the road from mine, which makes it kinda near my house too, and i totally do not have the excuse to say “oh no i lost my way” because pasir panjang is kinda like a straight road chockful of landmarks.

ANYWAY bible study class was good – i realize that i’ve missed out on alot.
like sunday school. that basically most people around me have been through.
but anyway. lunch after that was good too, then went cake shopping for mother’s day!!
(and we picked up a cake for ourselves too because i kinda really love cake. HAHA.)

then went to surprise my mum!!
and i think she was quite happy
came home, completely and utterly worn out and now i shall go SLEEP.

where a little faith’s enough, to see mountains lift and move.

today was another really, really good day!

went for second service, so i managed to get a decent amount of sleep before that!
and so i walked into the worship hall, looked around for a place to sit, and lo and behold, guess what i found!

:D

someone waiting to give me a surprise!
and i was shocked (in a good way) and like, yeah really happy obviously!
i think its a good coincidence (maybe part of God’s plan, come to think of it) that our churches are so nearby each other
okay and considering this is the 3rd time he’s visited PPH i think its time i pay his church (down the road) a visit too, soon

and somehow, by some chance, we were both wearing a shade of blue, PLUS black jacket. COOL OR NOT.
okay well we may be wearing blue, but we sure ain’t blue about it

anyway. he had to cab down to ecp for training, and i just tagged along.
then from ecp i made the long journey back to vivo to meet estella!

by estella the great.

(I’m supposed to keep the box forever)

jelly beans are good stuff man!!
so was talking to estella about lots of random stuff
and attempting to steal her phone whereby she wanted to kill me hohoho

well yes, this has been one of the best weekends i’ve ever had.
i didn’t even feud with my parents, amazingly, which just makes this weekend perfect!

i really thank God,
because i know sometime this week everything seemed all bleak and dark and tearful and its hard to think that it was just sometime earlier THIS WEEK that i was on the way to becoming a crying wreck again
BUT everything’s turned out so well (and i’ve rediscovered the benefits of being honest with your feelings/thoughts/worries)
AND i don’t think i need to run away from reality/ my problems anymore because reality’s just fine and yeah,
i’ve learnt that, once again, when you trust in God, things work out

i am a happy girl, living in her happy world

(happy enough such that the prospect of SCHOOL and esp. econs tmrw doesn’t seem THAT bad. okay but still bad sigh. weekends should come more often. maybe 3 days a week instead of two…..)

that’s when i love you.

HELLO WORLD, I AM BLOGGING FROM VIETNAM.

it has been awesome here
my worries were completely unreasonable and unfounded because it is really fun here and i remembered how much i like pho and i really enjoy getting to use my rusty vietnamese again!

i think i might secretly have the potential to be a linguist because i love languages and i think i might be good at it. or it might just be alot of exposure to vietnamese! HAHA.

my buddy is really nice and her house has TWO CATS AND A DOG.
i am secretly in heaven.
oh and today i rode a motorbike, a trishaw and saw horses and buffaloes. i saw a buffalo CLOSE UP and i think i’m quite n00b but i was gonna touch it (cos its the first time im seeing one i think) but everyone was like “it’s dirty” so i stayed away heh.
i also squealed alot. at animals. i think the animal lover in me has been dormant (or rather restricted), limited only to my kittybaby at home and sparky. so now, i am AWAKENED. haha.
okay but i still prefer the ones at home. they look (and presumably smell) better.

tomorrow we (the humanities scholars) have to PERFORM in front of the whole school and i feel quite unprepared BUT ahwell i shall have to just TRUST God that everything will turn out fine.

i am actually really happy here except that it is awfully cold but thankfully gill lent me her cardigan today so with that,plus my jacket, i felt just about okay.
i am now in my SOLID sunburst youth camp jacket which is really, really good at keeping me warm even though it’s a BRIGHT shade of orange and thus unfashionable to wear out sadly.

ho chi minh was never this cold when i went there! so hopefully, when we get there in a few days time,it’ll be nice and warm.

till then, HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

-

and to you, you know who you are,
it’s been one very amazing month,
<3.
its been happy times, good times,
fun times, crazy times,
and i see more to come.

and for that, and much more,
i thank God.

how does it feel to know you’ll never have to be alone?

my playlist has been so fixated on new songs that I forgot about my old favourites, like maroon five and olp and other emo songs that I might be better off without.
Or not.

This week has been horrible. Its been full of tears, I’ve felt completely stressed and I’ve gone off my rocker more than once, and sworn so much that I’m pretty ashamed of myself. I also went through a phase where I was absolutely convinced that God must hate me, but thankfully I actually find that thought quite stupid and laughable right now.

Because God has been by my side all this week, keeping me sane through various forms, through the daily devos in odb, by keeping me safe and healthy and well despite my erratic eating habits, and through the christians in my life, among other things.

I am so grateful to God, and to my friends, for not giving up on me.
Honestly if not for b, grace and dmzxz, by now I’d be a wreck, hiding at home.
I’m also grateful to my history sem grp for being so understanding, and all the other people who’ve somehow made my week slightly easier to get through.

And thank God, its over. Next week doesn’t look that much better, but to be honest, its hard to get much worse.
My eyebags are so bad that I don’t even care anymore.

Last night I went on an ice-cream binge with b, which made us both a lot happier, minus the “oh no now I’m fat” feeling. Ice-cream always saves the day I shared a pint of haato with grace on monday

my laptop charger is still quite dead, but I think I’m gonna buy one online tonight/tmrw so, yeah.
Till then, my net access is restricted to my phone.

Thank God for this awesome phone, and for unlimited sms so I can send 20page long smses