so let me get this straight – you say now you’ve loved me all along.

day late friend is haunting. haunting me.
the acoustic version (can’t understand why a certain someone refuses to listen to it! it’s so good!) is so.. mellow. sad. melancholy. honest.
and the original is more upbeat. but it’s got quirks too. that make it interesting to listen to.

anyway!! this week i’ve been spending alot of money on food!!
or rather, i’ve actually been eating ALOT.
(oh dear.)

okay but ikea tonight was aweeeesome.
meatballs pluss mushroom soup yummieeeee
i think my appetite is BACK FOR GOOD NOW

THREADLESS SHIRTS ARE IN!!
am abit annoyed though. shirts are abit too long, and although fitting is good, fitting around the hips for people like me with humongous hips is bad bad bad.
plus printing this time leaves very much to be desired.
i am slightly disappointed but my shirts are really nice so i guess i am still quite happy!!
especially since they are finally here!
(i can only blame myself for being fat.)

okay but still. i can’t wait to wear my new shirts!! threadless plusss stuff from vietnam HAHA. oh dear i think i have been shopping too much.
was tempted to  buy this billabong wallet today but i think i’ve been spending too much lately and i very much like my current wallet even though its (more than just) abit dirty.

ahwell. tonight i shall attempt (for once) to do my econs homework.
AND sleep early.

and today was a day unlike any other;

5 AWESOME things that made my day!

1. almost late for school :/ but i made it in time to emcee for the morning assembly Thank God. i lovelovelove public speaking of any kind, especially semi-formal emceeing. i RAN the last 200m into school and nearly died cos i was in PUMPS with zero support. but other than the emceeing being fun, orange exchange was quite fun too

2. cny celebrations/ concert was okay, i really like watching chinese dance!!

3. MY LIT H3 IS NO LONGER IN THE DUMPS i have a topic, but i need to think alotalotalot more about it. STILL. its better than having no topic. Thank God, and thank Mr Whitby.

4. grace and i were craving subway. i remembered priscilla from ngeeann saying something about having subway for lunch, and i figured that since there isnt any subway relatively near NJ (UNFORTUNATELY) it must have been in her school. and true enough, ngeeannpoly ROCKKKKKS it has a new canteen which is clean, spacious, beautiful, with CHEAP FOOD and GOOD FOOD to throw into the bargain. try subway and waffletown – and you could have a good meal under ten bucks buying from both. man, life is so so good when you find things like these.
that canteen is my new study place. goodbye expensive gloria jean’s (which i haven’t visited in MONTHS), when i start studying again i will just study at possibly the best canteen in singapore.
and maybe, one day, i’ll try the other dishes other than subway!! haha.
I LOVE SUBWAY.

5. SHOPPING WITH FER bought skinny jeans in black i wanted to buy another pair of heels from charles & keith cos they were all soooo nice but i think i shouldn’t because heels on tall people just don’t look good. i saw a few already tall caucasian girls in heels to make them taller and they are… literally a head above the rest. i bet their boyfriends are all like…. yao mings. probably fellow caucasians who are like, tall.

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over this week, i have thought about this-
5 reasons why i wish i were a guy
1. i wouldn’t get hormonal
2. i would have a high metabolism rate, so i could eat alottt.
3. i would be better at running
4. i would be able to sit at the playground alone at 11pm at night and not be scared
5. i would be able to sit in an abandoned field for as long as i wanted without looking over my back or wondering when the sky will turn too dark for me to stay there safely.

okay yeah basically there was a sunset today that looked promising, and i wanted to straightaway run to labrador park to take it. except that labrador park is a very long walk in, hence not suitable for a girl to go. i wanted to go to a high place, like telok blangah hilltop, where there’d be no obstructions. but then, someone actually like got buried there so yeah, not a good idea. i’d be freaked out to death.
(maybe i just need a brother to double up as a personal bodyguard. HEH. preferably someone who would share my interest in the sky.)
and then i remembered that when i run, i usually pass by an abandoned field and the sunset sometimes looks very promising, and i’d always wish i had my camera but i never would. so today i made a special trip just to explore the field.
it is one really big field. its used for archery. and it was completely empty. quite scary to be alone there but the sunset was worth capturing.
the clouds were too dark though, spoilt the hues of the sky.
i felt like the hues of the sky today were like… the colours of the wind. or at least, the day the colours of the wind look in the pocahontas MV.
and then i had to quickly take and then go (i stayed almost an hour anyway) because i figured if it gets dark, then it’d be dangerous.
i took about 30+ pictures, tried bothering with the composition, played about abit with scenes and colour selection, but i think there’s only gonna be one or two that are actually noteworthy.

ANYWAY I FEEL VERY PLEASED ABOUT MYSELF RIGHT NOW.
life is good.

we’ll make it out of this mess.

i can’t stand it, why can’t it come out today! this is the first real scene i’ve seen from the movie aside from the trailers and i can’t wait to watch it.

i also wish i could watch avenue Q!

i am putting nanowrimo (and gossip girl) on hold because my i&r is in shambles.

pw this morning, then out shopping with mum also changed my phone plan so from tomorrow onwards i have unlimited sms, and unlimited free incoming calls !!!!!
i am quite excited. heh. okay scrap that, i’m REALLY excited
mum got a new phone instead cos i didn’t see anything that i really liked.
plus i figure i’ve been a spoilt brat for long enough.

today was a really bad day in terms of buses and traffic lights though;
buses wouldn’t come, traffic lights went entirely against me, and i was just really moody.

it’ll all be over soon!

but i don’t mind; as long as there’s a bed beneath the stars that shine.

nanowrimo starts tmrw! then i’ll have 30 days (only 25 at the computer though) to write a full-length novel of 50,000 words. sounds absolutely amazing and i’m not sure how i’m gonna do it!

i finished watching shark and then moved on to (surprise, surprise) gossip girl.
it’s addictive but i’d still prefer shark/pushing daisies/alias anytime.
except that i’ve finished shark and alias (gonna watch alias again when my DVDs come back) and i’ve watched all of pushing daisies that’s available for now.
so i ended up sleeping at like 5am, woke up at 1plus and lazed around,
then went down to PS and bought my very pricey capri pants from espirit, but it’s worth it

i think i need to do more shopping soon.

came home and went running… and it was really terrible today i walked most of the 8km because i just seriously couldn’t run anymore. i think i had too heavy a lunch i feel terribly unfit now hopefully, this is just one off.

wouldn’t it be grand? it ain’t exactly what you planned.

besides a painful, swollen eye, today was amazingly good
i feasted, and ate enough to feed a cow =X

lunch with mum at swenson’s, sundaes ftw!
then dinner with aunty kelly at gelare, waffles pwnage.

in between, shoppinggg!!!

major splurge of the week (a $4.50 magazine, just because it had SOMEONE on it. no prizes for guessing who.)

i wish there was a pullout poster ): the movie comes out in singapore 18th december, ONE DAY before my supercool musical SO i think watching it will have to be put off ): but it comes out in the US november 21st so… i’ll be grabbing a sneak preview.

i can’t wait! seeing the magazine cover totally made my day. (okay and shopping with mummy after that just made my day even more fantabulous)

i thought this looked like a nice addition to my dwindling collection of string
i’m a little addicted again after learning the caterpillar style,
and well i just like seeing lots of colours in my string box.

i’m feeling like a new born child, everytime I get a chance to see you smile.

TODAY WAS FABULOUS

okay other than falling asleep in lessons which sucked, i was livid with anticipation for school to end earlier than normal (with my last lesson being cancelled) before i sped home and met fer!
where we had a very funtabulous day out

started out at far east, where everything seems to be uglier and pricier :S so i just bought a new belt and considered getting more cotton shirts but decided against it cos none of them were very nice. went off to wisma, spent forever in forever 21 and cotton on because it was amazingly crowded, then had a quick stop at hula & co. where we splurged but came out of it aaaallooootttt happier
so now i have an absolutely beautiful new black dress that i wish i could wear right now, or as soon as possible cause it’s just so pretty, and fer bought a dressy top.

…and then the both of us were broke, but high. ended up in river valley for dinner & dessert. dinner was at some random place that had fabulous cheese & mushroom roti john, then dessert was at a quaint ice cream parlour with yummy scoops of rum & raisin, sinfully delicious belgium chocolate, and strawberry cheesecake. then we felt quite bad for eating so much, so we dropped off at harbourfront and walked home in record fast time. since we just live a few blocks away from each other

humongous portions...

...of yummy ice cream!

i love love love days like these i wish there could be more of them. with the one friend who’s known me the longest (this is the 11th years) and lives the nearest too

love thy neighbour as you love thyself!

AND NOW…. my day just got better!!! i finally watched the final twilight trailer and it is… amazing. honestly can’t wait for the movie to be out, i’m shivering with anticipation already. (and will go back to reading those solid, beautiful books again soon)

your voice … was the soundtrack of my summer.

weekly wisdom (taken from Christ Notes):

• If you’re too busy to spend time with God, then you’re simply too busy.
• If you don’t feel like you’re getting the love you should get, then maybe you should ask yourself if you’re giving the love you should give.

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i think the above made alot of sense. i’m going to commit myself to youth, and after promos, church service on sunday too. it’s about time i made the right habits.

i owe daddy a walk on the telok blangah hill canopy walk thing. when it first opened MONTHS ago (april or may i think) i made him promise not to go on it without me, and we still haven’t gone on it yet. maybe this weekend, i guess. for once, my parents both agree on the same thing – they both think i’m too busy. i think it’s just because i don’t spend enough time with them. when i think about that i just feel awful. but i’d like to think… that i’m trying. i think i am.

well today i realized that school isn’t as fun as before because lessons are simply… not as fun. like, i have to find my own entertainment, when it used to be lessons i actually looked forward to. now, i only look forward to lit. every other lesson is bearable, some are interesting, some are well-taught, but none of them are really… fun.

volleyball during PE today was quite fun. i think i’m getting the hang of it?? this is the first tuesday PE lesson i’m attending in WEEKS ahaha. my legs are aching abit from running yesterday eh, but i’m still quite jumpy. i’ll probably go run on friday if i’m not too tired.

went to vivo with ella – pageone for a while but no new/nice files so i ran off to minitoons where i found a GORGEOUS ariel file and SCREAMED when i found it, bought it and felt really happy after that!! then went down to gloria jean’s and the $2 latte’s pretty decent lah, i forsee myself making GJ at vivo my new hangout cos its so near! it’s quite comfy too even though they play weird rockish music that somehow… isn’t that bad?? haha. a mix of sushi for dinner, and later on, ended up at giant buying sweets just as they were closing.

i think i’m too broke to buy new earphones anytime soon, especially since i need to buy my lit texts (not one but TWO, shizz.) sometime in the VERY NEAR FUTURE. oh dear.

but still, today was a good day(: i haven’t felt so awake in ages. trying to sleep early (<1am) is evidently good. i can’t believe i think early is 1am, but this is what life has become.

find a way to lie, about a home i’ll never see.

i suddenly have a horrid cough, even though i was feeling fine all day.

spent the morning trying to finish history VA, before heading out to popular for new pens!!! super jealous that donut factory has made it to tiong, along with subway and other cool things that i can no longer enjoy because my school isn’t near there anymore! hrmphs. then headed to borders to FIND MY LIT TEXT which still eludes me. i think i’m just going to buy the overpriced one from school. GRAH.

studied with suzy today at tanglin mall’s starbucks, and ended up on a food binge around the basement. cute looking donuts and cloud9 ice cream. yummyyyy

bought dad his favourite blueberry cheesecake and had that for dessert after dinner! i have been eating so much this week i don’t really dare to go look at the weighing scale anymore! ahhhh. what a wonderful combination, to be fat and broke. and inundated with work i somehow can’t ever finish, and not enough time to run.

my EoM is a failure. i should just starve myself and spend 24/7 finishing my work and drinking coffee. this sucks. i need to get my act together!

bright spot (literally) on the horizon — sentosa tomorrow with the vietnamese!

when you’re dreaming with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.

i do not want to go back to school tomorrow;
i can’t believe it’s monday SO FAST!

spent the day wth carl’s junior where it was rather noisy but i managed to do some work. so dead, so dead, so dead for next week.

i finished one entire burger at carl’s junior!!!!!!!!!!!!! plus the full meal too. man i amaze myself sometimes. studied for a while with just kang-an then suzy came and we started just talking rubbish about B**. omg hilarious i haven’t laughed so much in quite a while.

then met mum at vivo, went shopping!!! dinner at secret recipie which was scrumptious. lasagne and cake and a cuppachino that’s keeping me awake right now. and then mum was in a good mood and bought me some stuff ahah. yay i still can’t find skinny jeans; i think i’m destined to have to tailor jeans to fit me.

today was a fabulous sunday, i managed to get enough sleep even though my eyes were somehow swollen for a while this morning ):

i’m excited about how i’m going to be on arts central tmrw at 10pm for bridging minds!!!!!!!!! EVERYONE GO WATCH, IT IS HILARIOUS TRUST ME. HAHAH.

i forgot all the rubbish i did, now’s the time for me to watch it again whoohoo. i’m also abit nervous, and not just about seeing myself being nationally mortified. HAHA.

we could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable, instead of just invisible.

j.co donuts! omg filling and zomgzxz awesome.

drinks were rather overpriced.

(but michelle thinks she makes a good uh, hand model. HAHA.)

two very crazy and very happy people

i think my face has grown chubbier! ): today mich and i went on an elusive search for skinny jeans — sadly for us, with big hips and (relative to our hips) skinny thighs, it’s either too tight on the hips or too loose around the thighs, so we either end up uncomfortable or it defeats the purpose of skinny jeans in the first place! so not fair. our plight is quite saddening.

mich is leaving in like, two weeks. i wish i wasn’t so busy, i wish i could put everything else on hold, so we could go out every other day. we did this very funny pinkie promise to write though. canada is awfully far away, and there are no exchange programs to go over there either! suckzxz.

ahh very angry, i bought a little mermaid pen but didn’t try it out, came home only to realize it didn’t work!!! cheat my money! ): and the shop has a no exchange policy. i feel quite silly now ): but ohmygoodness i love disney princess stuff. i’m not even sure why. i think love is something that’s very hard to define, or justify.

i have a new penpal/email pal from swapbot! exciting stuff man.

very tired although i haven’t been sleeping in lessons despite my obvious lack of sleep, and i’m still pretty energetic!!!

and omg my shoulder just ACHES from lugging around my horribly heavy bag today!!

okay today i have been very random. lack of sleep = increase of air in the head. even though i’ve been singing “no air” (by jordin sparks & chris brown), much to grace’s derision, because as a physics student she finds it hard to believe that there can be “no air” ahahah.

math has been bearable this week. i shall try to keep this up!

house session today was fab, i yelled my voice out. i think my favourite part of the year is orientation. lovelovelove cheering man.