a love that never fails.

HAVEN’T HAD SUCH A GREAT DAY IN AGES

went to visit b’s church today! i really love it how his church is just down the road from mine, which makes it kinda near my house too, and i totally do not have the excuse to say “oh no i lost my way” because pasir panjang is kinda like a straight road chockful of landmarks.

ANYWAY bible study class was good – i realize that i’ve missed out on alot.
like sunday school. that basically most people around me have been through.
but anyway. lunch after that was good too, then went cake shopping for mother’s day!!
(and we picked up a cake for ourselves too because i kinda really love cake. HAHA.)

then went to surprise my mum!!
and i think she was quite happy
came home, completely and utterly worn out and now i shall go SLEEP.

knowing.

most people stay up to finish homework, or to study.

I stayed up to watch “knowing”, which turned out to be pretty good.

and now, i’m gonna die in school later.

oh dear.

waiting for you, on the corner of the street.

HOHOHO TODAY WAS AWESOME.
A for PW whee!! along with my entire group and almost my entire class, so WHEE WHEE WHEE!!
did badly for GP essay which i got quite annoyed about but i guess its just a wake-up call that i’m not working hard enough :/ going through sea sbq in class today also left me feeling very highly inadequate and i think i might fail that history test. AHH.

but i can avoid thinking about all that right now and just – have fun!
waited an HOUR for b to finish school, then hung around parkway parade.
AND I FOUND THE LESPORTSAC PRINT I NEVER GOT TO BUY IN VIETNAM! except that it’s in black, not white like i wanted. STILL.
the more i look at it, the more i LOVE IT!

the White version i Wanted.

the BLACK one i Bought.

AM SUPER HAPPY THAT I HAVE FINALLY BOUGHT IT AHAH.
then went to popular to buy stationary (rawr. time to start doing my homework!) and CD of the month! this month’s cd was 101 love songs ahah. cheesy name but its 6 CDs of really nice songs so yay

new zealand natural + mummy's brownies

then had chcolate icecream with mum’s brownies!
it doesn’t look very good but it was really yummy!! AHAHA.
went shopping (parkway actually has quite alot of stuff) but i was in my fat mood so everything wasn’t very nice tome cos like, i felt like it was all for skinny people. which i honestly, sincerely, don’t consider myself part of

ANYWAY DINNER WAS GOODSTUFF aston’s is like, cheap and good.
its tony roma’s but the cheaper version and like. yeah basically good.
SUPER FULL and contented now OMGOSH.

okay time for more photospam…
THE ROOT BEER BATTLE.
(sadly no matter how much i rotate the pictures only turn out landscape! rawr!)

at first it didn't look like we could finish it!

it was really such an awfully big jug of root beerr!

but still we fought on, and started drinking.

okay then dinner came, and we forgot about the root beer for a while cos dinner was just so good!
but then we still had abit left, so we emptied that equally into 2 full glasses…

all ready to start the SHOWDOWN!

AND THEN we had an EPIC FIGHT over who could finish that glass the fastest!!

he finished first. and started burping.

…and then i had to finish like, just that little bit that was left in mine because i stopped to swallow the drink PROPERLY.

and so i finished first runner-up... but contented still!

and we managed to finish that awfully (delicious) big jug of root beer!

ROOT BEER GUZZLERS!

i’m a happy happy girl even though this can sometimes be a horrid horrid world!

yay long weekend!! SLEEP TIME
really, really hope that it doesn’t rain tomorrow!! so i can go to sentosa

You know you got me off my highest guard.

i was so exhausted that upon reaching home, i promptly dozed off on the couch and slept through quite a few messages.
only waking up an hour later when mum came back with yoghurt
feeling quite drowsy now.
and this is BEFORE i take my medication haha.

anyway, BIG NEWS TODAY.

my lit h3 research proposal…. HAS BEEN APPROVED
i thank God that it managed to come back with a tick, and not a “no you need to find another topic”.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

oh and on another note.
i also think that lately. i might be a little too frank on the wrong things, and not serious enough, or politically correct enough, perhaps too informal on some thing, so yeah. i think i need to be abit more serious. i find that i can slip back and forth but i can’t joke around for the rest of my days that would not be quite desirable.
so yes, no more being self-deprecreating.

and….i am really tired!! ):
so glad that tomorrow we start later.
even though we’re being cheated of the half day :X

today i went back in time to listen to secondhand serenade.
i was really into that, over a year ago. seems so far away.
too distant for me to remember clearly.
now the songs are just somewhat familiar lyrics to hear.
i guess everything changes, even if we want things to stay the same.
sometimes, i guess, it’s for the better.

my facebook pictures are not uploading properly.
it takes super long, and at the end of it, the upload fails.
I am quite depressed about it!

more than some pretty face, beside a train.

finally, very belated additions of photos on facebook
uploading them is such a PAINNNNN but it’s actually kinda fun too. its called making full use of my digital camera

anyway today was an AWESOME POSSUM day
this week didn’t start off all that well but it’s all okay now and i’m happy and really happy and not worried and just.
HAPPY.
CONTENTED.
and very thankful to God.

my debate seniors made it to the honour roll, zomg. for 8 and 7 distinctions respectively??
and of course the rest did well too and like, i don’t get it how they do better every year so like i don’t know what my batch is supposed to come up with!
dmzx made it to the honour roll too!!!
so basically i’m really proud of all of them and really happy that i didn’t have to deal with crying people.

yes for the MT results too.
b was happy with what he got, madhura too, so yes.
i’m happy cos (almost) everyone around me’s happy

awesome possum day
seeing all the seniors back, made me realize how much i had missed them. like weiwen’s NOISEEEEEEEEE and the rowdy IP boys and the ISL peeps and the debaters and the OGLs and all the people who made last year so awesome.
i guess this year i’ve focused more on my little group of friends, rather than being the-one-who-knows-everyone.
okay but seriously, i was just suddenly like, whoa actually there’s so much to miss.

hmm yeah i guess this year so far has just been pretty decent, with a few really memorable things so far, so like, i guess i’m really happy with what i’ve got now and i’m not living in the past.
i can deal with change. yes.

AHHH VERYY TIREDDDDDDD.
so glad it’s the weekend.
but then again, my week wasn’t that bad.
suddenly, life just seems to be always full of something positive.
(i think that something positive’s you.)

it’s so overdue.

and i don’t wanna fall to pieces
i just wanna sit and stare at you
but there is no more time for lies
cause I see sunset in your eyes

I AM STRESSED TO THE MAXXXXXX.
i have no idea why i signed up to be an OGL.
this is where i reexamine the human being i have been, and the one i should be, and well.
SO MUCH TO DO, HOW?
i think the worst part of this all is that i really, really want to sleep.

reds against the hues of blues.

ISL meeting this morning made me wonder why a year has passed so fast. There’s almost a sense of déjà vu of sorts. Except that so much in between has changed. Dance class after that made me a happy girl (: I can twirl, I can jump, I can be myself and all spirited and it’s okay. PW after that at saniah’s house was hilarious; toby and joey are very cute and cuddly kitties, we tried playing guitar hero and it didn’t really work out. HAHAH.

I fell asleep in the car, and promptly got scolded by dad for not sleeping enough. so i’m unoffically grounded. it’s unofficial because my dad’s not around to enforce it, and i can’t be grounded because i have too many things to do.

i’m so stoned i’m spouting rubbish and i can’t even speak clearly.
my head’s swirling with thoughts and everything i need to sort out, soon.
but not now,

goodnight, world. i surrender to fatigue.

why i dare to dream, or why i love, or why i sing.

temasek seminar today was quite interesting.

i never perceived defense to be so important. visit to the SAF museum was aaaaamaaaaazing too. the video we watched with live effects was one of the best videos i’ve ever seen, and i never want to be caught in gunfire.

we gave up listening to the talk on scholarships, and decided to have other forms of fun instead HAHA. honestly i think it (the scholarships) looks good but i’ve heard the truth instead of just the sales pitch! and like, i totally can’t pass my NAPFA even, let’s not talk about “Basic Military Training” cause that spells DOOM.

came back to school too late to attend any of the remedial lectures :/ or malay class, double gah. i fell asleep on the bus on the way there and on the way back — talk about lack of sleep. the moment the bus moved i conked out.

ended up going out with the gooooseeeeeey girl, and walked from forum to far east for subway, only to realize there’s a subway OPPOSITE forum =.=

then went to vivo in search of disney pens from minitoons and failed miserably!!

elektra this sunday! i can’t remember watching it, but i must because i love jennnifer garner.

my life is brilliant — really. i’m so glad the weekend is here even though it doesn’t look like i’ll be having a break, either :/

when i have my last training for debates (for this semester at least) sometime next week, i will not know what i come to school for anymore, except, perhaps, my best friends who always make my day. but good times can’t change my EoM deadline, WR deadline, VA deadlineS and promos in 7 weeks.

GAHMZXZ. i need to stop stressing.

i’ll be just fine, pretending i’m not.

all i really really need now is sleep, but that’s the last thing on my mind that’s positively buzzzzzzing with things to do. i’m still awake in class, but i’m so chirpy it’s scary. i think i really need to sleep more.

lunch today was at the grandstand with grace. very random. we were super tempted to pon our last lesson after that, which was MATH. of all the things.

spar with sajc after that, and i realized that SA wasn’t that far away from NJ.

fell asleep on the way back home. walked in a mild drizzle and felt quite awake… for a while.

this month is passing by far too fast. it’s almost the end but it feels like the start.

OH AND !! MONDAY, 28TH JULY, ARTS CENTRAL, 10PM – BRIDGING MINDS !!

do tune in, you get to see me with a horrible hongkong accent and declaring myself a tree-hugger and someone who used to have eating problems (3 different characters in 3 acts). one month after the recording, it premieres.

THE ONE MONTH HAS PASSED SOOOOO FASTTTT. i miss my teammates and the hotel and the gym and the food and generally the whole lifestyle. i had a fabulous bunch of people with me.

and now, i’m 7 weeks away from promos and i’m starting to feel very, very stressed.

so much hinges on this. (GAH.)

i really don’t want next year to come. last year was fabulous, this year fabulous in a different way, but next year will just be a hell hole of tests culminating in that stupid exam.

breaks of sanity from insanity would be appreciated. i think the closest i can get to that is quiet time with God every night. i get stressed by shopping because i can’t decide what i want to buy. so i think i’m better off bingeing myself into oblivion then going running in order to prevent myself from a very real death.

i reallyreallyreally want to go to sentosa. i need time AWAY from reality. swimming pool is no longer a substitute, i want to lie on the beach and sleep. the thought itself is so comforting. maybe sunday. (yes, and i can go on my wishful thinking.)

okay enough thinking -:/

cory finds another way to be the highlight of my day.

i am faint with fatigue;

i stayed up until 430am this morning to finish history VA, woke up 180 minutes later and hauled myself out of bed and to school, surviving the day with just a coffee & a donut to kickstart it off.

all that slogging for 5 marks. we students of today live pathetic lives.

i stayed awake the whole day, being happy and high and random. VERY RANDOM. to the extent mr whitby termed it “airheadedness”. i think a lack of sleep makes me more alive. in a bad way.

i basically sound like an obsessive and whiny spoilt brat, the last thing on earth i’d want to be.

EoM remains… undone. i feel guilty for spending the weekend with food. i don’t dare to go near the weighing scale after the enourmous amounts of food i have consumed in the past 72 hours, especially last night when i binged cos i was stressed and also cos i needed to stay awake.

i. have. so. much. to. do. ):