would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTELLA!!

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oooh today was pretty much awesomenes
i woke up in time, scrambled to school in time, didn’t screw up during ASEAN simulation (i think my performance was actually quite praiseworthy HAHA. evidently humility is not one of my attributes but yeah.), didn’t fall asleep in math, lit test was okay – i had stuff to write, but the quality remains to be seen, and then GP was just reading the economist AND I WAS DONE WITH SCHOOL

then headed over to b’s place to go swimming!! haven’t gone swimming in like … a year??
i miss swimming. it’s fun pool was too small to get any kick out of doing 20 laps though :/

dinner was my first homecooked meal in about a month, and scrumptious to the max!

spaghetti carbonara YUMYUM!

after that, we cabbed down to marina barrage and OMG I LOVE THAT PLACE.
you can actually see stars from there. and the city skyline is just so majestic that it leaves me speechless!!

AND THEN because it’s coincidentally the opening of arts fest today -
SUDDENLY there were FIREWORKS!! OMG I LOVE FIREWORKS.
and it was just so very beautiful and i was really, really happy about that!

evening today was just perrrrfecttt!

what you do to make yourself less blue.

after actually clearly looking at my schedule, i realized i have nothing to be stressed out about, i’m not inundated by work and the next stress time is still one week away, phew.

i feel nonplussed that there’s school tomorrow. i’ve had a fabulous weekend to make up for a not so good week.

went swimming instead of running today. dad refused to let me go until after 4, by then there wasn’t any sun so i’m still a shade of off brown with weird tanlines because of orientation stuff like the quest and the solaris outing to sentosa.

swam 10 laps, took a break, and then another 10. pretty decent considering i can’t even remember the last time i went swimming haha. i remembered today why i love swimming. because when you’re in the water you can think all the deep, dark, thoughts you want and you can’t cry, you’re forced to just face everything and you’re forced to either solve it or put the problem away.

so at the end of the first 10 laps i sat by the pool just staring into space with my iPod by my side, and i just blanked out entirely. totally zen manzxz.

i realized i don’t need that much in life, just my iPod and some stationary to pen my thoughts, or a poem or a story, occasionally, and i’m quite satisfied.

so no more tears, no more feeling all emo or moody, i’ll face life with whatever it brings.

it doesn’t hurt trying to be an introvert for a day; somehow i just didn’t feel like talking. i doubt dad noticed the sullen silence though. ahwell.