God is sovereign over everything & although times are tough, i can truly testify that God does not test you beyond what you can take. today i felt quite disappointed about my math, but something big just happened to cheer me up immensely, and i now feel like i’ve got the strength to go on…
everything i am, for Your kingdom’s cause.
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another lit test tmrw and it feels like i have so much to do! 
but i made 3 cards last night!! handmade stuff is time-consuming much but actually fun to do andd hopefully the recipients will like what i’ve done 
my mum was looking at all the stuff i did and she was like “if only you would put in so much effort into your studies.”
well. i think for my GE notes last year i put in a similar amount of effort. but since then i have stagnated and OH. GE remains a distant memory and everything else i’m learning this year is just a drifting log in the middle of a lazy river that is my brain.
timetable for the next fortnight looks good. anything beats waking up at 6am honestly. what’s not so cool is the chockblock of lectures i’m missing due to LS :/ and there’s a young adults camp in church exactly at the time of LS – but then again even if i didn’t have LS i’d have school so i can’t go. i missed last year’s june youth camp because of SMUN, missed the december camp because of sunburst, and will miss the june one this year because of Pre-U Sem. and i turn 18 in june and technically will no longer be a “youth”… yet december i aim to attend my first ever youth camp. ironically i will no longer be a youth :/
chicken rice for lunch today! and dmzx popped by!
college day rehearsal went ohkay. i can’t be heard. for the first time, yeah.
but! i’m sure things will go better so yeah. its actually kinda fun in a stressful way.
like, stressful to make sure i don’t muck up, and fun when i feel acheived cos i didn’t muck up.
ANYWAY after rehearsal ended early (!!) i went down to borders to use my discount voucher that daddy cut out from TST only to realize dad cut out the WRONG HALF so i couldn’t actually use it. and i only realize that after i spent 2 hours browsing books. okay not that i spent 2 hours choosing – surprisingly they don’t have duchess of malfi, my lit text, but they did have the jungle book which i need for my lit h3. okay it was secretly really good to spend time in borders. i like borders and bookstores in general.
i really like catherine lim. i don’t know why it never came to mind to do my lit h3 on her.
her writing style is…something i enjoy reading.
her ideas on love, family and life in general are presented with a sardonic tone in a short stories, but in her novels she is just so, so honest and endearing and heart-wrenching andd-
she definitely is one of my favourite authors!!
and a leap of love is definitely one of my favourite books of ALL TIME.
its a book that makes me believe in the whole one true love thing, and that even in this modern day and age, prince charming can still exist, and that love at first sight does exist.
its a book that is far, far more realistic than disney, and its so believable that it’s got me hook, line and sinker and WELL although i do hope i’ll find “the one” and know it with as much fervour as Li-ann did, I wouldn’t like to meet him only once every 4 years!! that really is painful.
its almost like the lake house – how can you love someone you’ve never met? or rather, that you’ve met just once?
perhaps this is all just fodder for books and movies and for people like me who were brought up on disney to believe that such a thing can indeed exist.
today was another really, really good day!
went for second service, so i managed to get a decent amount of sleep before that!
and so i walked into the worship hall, looked around for a place to sit, and lo and behold, guess what i found!
:D
someone waiting to give me a surprise!
and i was shocked (in a good way) and like, yeah really happy obviously!
i think its a good coincidence (maybe part of God’s plan, come to think of it) that our churches are so nearby each other
okay and considering this is the 3rd time he’s visited PPH i think its time i pay his church (down the road) a visit too, soon
and somehow, by some chance, we were both wearing a shade of blue, PLUS black jacket. COOL OR NOT.
okay well we may be wearing blue, but we sure ain’t blue about it
anyway. he had to cab down to ecp for training, and i just tagged along.
then from ecp i made the long journey back to vivo to meet estella!
by estella the great.
(I’m supposed to keep the box forever)
jelly beans are good stuff man!!
so was talking to estella about lots of random stuff
and attempting to steal her phone whereby she wanted to kill me hohoho
well yes, this has been one of the best weekends i’ve ever had.
i didn’t even feud with my parents, amazingly, which just makes this weekend perfect!
i really thank God,
because i know sometime this week everything seemed all bleak and dark and tearful and its hard to think that it was just sometime earlier THIS WEEK that i was on the way to becoming a crying wreck again
BUT everything’s turned out so well (and i’ve rediscovered the benefits of being honest with your feelings/thoughts/worries)
AND i don’t think i need to run away from reality/ my problems anymore because reality’s just fine and yeah,
i’ve learnt that, once again, when you trust in God, things work out
i am a happy girl, living in her happy world
(happy enough such that the prospect of SCHOOL and esp. econs tmrw doesn’t seem THAT bad. okay but still bad sigh. weekends should come more often. maybe 3 days a week instead of two…..)
today was a 19 hour LONG day,
tiring,
satisfying,
disappointing.
humanities trip cultural performance rehearsal got me up at 5,
and being really intelligent i fell asleep on the bus and was late still,
napped in the canteen during break,
woke up in time to do econs homework for once,
did question 9 but it was actually question 8 due,
had a “consultation” where i basically just went on about how i promise to study harder etc. but i don’t know where i’ll find the time,
then LUNCH WITH LAVANIA which was friggin awesome -
we went to visit my mummy at bukit timah food centre…
and for $10.80, we had a decent pizza (excellent for that price) PLUS lasagna.
and then i was really nice and full for a while.
mum gave us dessert of her awesome brownies, healthier less sugary version which i don’t like as much ahaha.
i think know i have a sweet tooth.
then back to school for PE!!!
weather was perfect for a run… except that my iPod wasn’t down at the grandstand, and i was really, really full.
so i ran the 8 rounds really slowly, but it was really fun
and like, in the 6th round, i felt like i couldn’t go on anymore, but then my body went on autopilot mode… and i was running faster than my previous snail pace.
but although it was faster, i was still relaxed, carefree, not thinking, just running.
i like that kind of running.
so i guess. i thank God for that
being able to run, and having the strength to run on.
then adjudicator’s briefing, all exciting stuff,
ANDDDD TODAY i got to adjudicate A div and B div
finally, i’m no longer relegated to shadow adjudicate C div.
and it was really fun adjudicating
really exhausting though, but fun.
…but now, i’m just really, really drained.
i was FAMISHED by the time the last debate ended,
and kinda excited (or rather anxious) but the results…
and well. it was a little… ironic??
well stc made it in! to quarters.
and although i have nothing to do with it, i’m still quite happy
and my juniors… well i guess they probably missed it just by abit.
ahwell.
we’ve tried our best.
and so the season ends.
my last JGs season…
(unless i become a coach)
but yeah.
it feels abit odd.
i think i’m too tired to care right now.
(so tired that i cabbed back home.)
I NEED TO PACK OMG OMG OMG.
FLIGHT LEAVES AT 405PM TOMORROW,
COMING BACK 1325 ON SUNDAY.
i’m excited to leave and go over there and have alot alot of fun,
go shopping and all,
and even more excited to come back!
between now and then,
till i see you again,
i’ll be loving you.
love, me.
finally, very belated additions of photos on facebook
uploading them is such a PAINNNNN but it’s actually kinda fun too. its called making full use of my digital camera
anyway today was an AWESOME POSSUM day
this week didn’t start off all that well but it’s all okay now and i’m happy and really happy and not worried and just.
HAPPY.
CONTENTED.
and very thankful to God.
my debate seniors made it to the honour roll, zomg. for 8 and 7 distinctions respectively??
and of course the rest did well too and like, i don’t get it how they do better every year so like i don’t know what my batch is supposed to come up with!
dmzx made it to the honour roll too!!!
so basically i’m really proud of all of them and really happy that i didn’t have to deal with crying people.
yes for the MT results too.
b was happy with what he got, madhura too, so yes.
i’m happy cos (almost) everyone around me’s happy
awesome possum day
seeing all the seniors back, made me realize how much i had missed them. like weiwen’s NOISEEEEEEEEE and the rowdy IP boys and the ISL peeps and the debaters and the OGLs and all the people who made last year so awesome.
i guess this year i’ve focused more on my little group of friends, rather than being the-one-who-knows-everyone.
okay but seriously, i was just suddenly like, whoa actually there’s so much to miss.
hmm yeah i guess this year so far has just been pretty decent, with a few really memorable things so far, so like, i guess i’m really happy with what i’ve got now and i’m not living in the past.
i can deal with change. yes.
AHHH VERYY TIREDDDDDDD.
so glad it’s the weekend.
but then again, my week wasn’t that bad.
suddenly, life just seems to be always full of something positive.
(i think that something positive’s you.)
today was just brilliant.
i mean, i know you can’t ask for perfect days, and this wasn’t a perfect one, but i don’t think it’s going to get any more perfect than this, at least for a while.
-nush’s awesome cupcake (bought not made)
-BROADBAND CONNECTION HAS ARRIVED AND NOW I AM LIKE ANY OTHER NORMAL PERSON.
-hanging out at ECP with b was just amazzinggg!!
-the daily devotional i use (our daily bread) came in the mail today!!
ahaha i managed to get out of learning out to cycle, and got cycled around instead which looks easy but it’s actually quite scary :/
and of course sitting by the sea is one of my favourite things to do ever. i love the sound of the sea. and i love watching clouds go by.
and now, i like the sound of rain too. even when i’m not watching it from the outside but shivering from the drizzle.
i feel quite high and awake now, even though i should probably be feeling extremely exhausted but yeah.
i was right, life is just going on an uphill again.
and for that, i thank God
i saw this on postsecret and i could really relate to it -
