and so it is, just like you said it would be.

am trying very hard to RUMMAGE THROUGH MY WARDROBE to find something nice, decent and THIS should actually not be THAT hard but i’m being really picky because this feels like a job interview ‘cept that i really need to STOP FREAKING OUT (and say that to myself a few more times too and actually mean it) ‘cos i’m just you know, thinking too much as usual and being a WORRIER and just.

…
(whatever. i need to calm down. what’s the worst that could happen? well, nothing that could keep me down.}

and tomorrow is mother’s day.
i told dad about my “surprise” plans (second surprise i’ve planned this week)
dad said: since when do you celebrate this kinda thing?
i’ve celebrated the past few father’s days with my dad i think. or at least his birthday.
i think he’s just abit surprised someone is actually caring for my mum because he staunchly refuses to celebrates anniversaries, birthdays and other special days.

funnily enough, i’ve spent quite a few of my birthdays in malaysia because of him.
and this year, the one year i’d really like to spend in singapore, he’s decided it would be nice for me to have a joint celebration with my cousin who’s already drinking alcohol, and can drive too. while i try to stay legal and am not allowed to drive.
EQUITY does not exist, i tell you.

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okay but today, minus the preparations (i.e. worrying) for tomorrow, was quite good
CG outing was quite fun, celebrated lavania and estella’s birthday.
then youth was quite good too lovelovelove worship sessions. just sing and just. yeah.
i like that

and now i shall go prepare myself for Tomorrow.

we were both young when i first saw you

i’m having supper at 11; this is insane
and its only because i’m going to have to stay up and pay for my procrastinating ways
3 proposals by tomorrow

well at least im done with GG, moving on to ALIAS…soon.
i have realized that YLTC is next week and i
i. have not learnt how to cycle
ii. have not packed. at all.

i am currently really anti-NJ though. after i had to CAB into school from the BUS STOP because it was raining cats and dogs and the rest of the zoo and i had a LESSON to get to.

oh and something really freaky happened today; i saw a dog run out into the road and then get knocked by a car. it growled and then ran away. i was just shocked and traumatised but i’ve been thinking it over and the dog managed to run away so it must have been… okay. i have to tell myself that because i’m worrying, about a dog. and if it can walk again.

i think my ideal holiday job would be working at the SPCA.